My journal actually fell out of the first page, for the first time. That was almost like Roger falling from #1.
Well unfortunately, I haven't read too many journals either. When you play its fun to read everyone else's journal here and update my own. But I haven't played in a while. So this is like an appropriate, three week late, end to summer journal post.
I have played a few times actually, very few but have played. Not seriously but at this stage pretty much any outing with an equal opponent is a fairly 'focus on regaining my game in the shortest period and maintain it' type thing. So it was cool. I hit with a few people before school started. And then I went to the tryouts for the club team at Rutgers, not trying out for the club but just to see how everyone else was and where I match up. From what I saw I can 'easily' be a fairly strong club team person. Of the 40 or so people there that day including 5 or 6 existing club members, my good tennis is definitely top 5 material. I was happy to see that. I haven't had any competitive tennis in a long time but I have tried to maintain and improve my game and its nice to see that i can say with satisfaction that I can compare myself to some of those players whom I had seen and aimed to be like (that level). and I am usually pretty harsh on judging myself without being negative so I am happy.
All serious tennis, for all practical purposes are, I guess, done until next summer. Sad to say it but most likely the fact that I have to accept. I might still go out and hit a few times depeending on when myself and others are free.
I was going to post a fwe days ago but I was being really down at that moment and its never wise to linger on such negativity. Basically, I am pretty much out of shape right now. I still weigh about 155-160 lbs. I ran quite a bit this summer but I don't think I look any healthier. If anything I got much worse over summer, ironically. I can still run an under 7 minute mile whihc I was proud of. And I think I have gotten stronger but I have also gotten fatter. Yeah.. I mean, pretty disappointing.
Let me just put it this way.. there are a few shirts and jeans I have been wearing for around 3-4 years and I am starting to feel .. for some reason, I have been more self-conscious lately and not satisfied with how I have kept myself. I am usually very laid back and don't ever care about my appearnce or what clothes I am wearing or whatever.. I am very comfortable with who I am and for some reason I feel like I have slipped from my own expectations. perhaps I am trying too hard to impress the ladies
Whatever, I am not too worried. Usually I get back to normal over semester, I don't get stronger or healthier but I do think I get rid of some fat and some excess pounds. But this semester I have also kept running and planning on hitting the weight room more often. I am also trying to make my 15 minute exercise routine thing to be more of a routine.. it still feels like a chore hence I skip it frequently.
I am always very self-assured.. I just feel its strange that I am being a little more self-conscious and not feeling good about it.
Anyway.. well, I'll keep you updated if I do anything fun. I think I want to play a lot more racquetball this semester since its weather and light independent unlike tennis (
) but if its warm like last year, I want to keep playing tennis all the time! I probably won't post much on these forums as I used to (already reduced my posting..
) cuz this semester's the hardest one so far and is definitely way way way more time consuming. But I'll also try to keep reading a few more journals here, they always keep me bright and pumped up about tennis
See you around!